Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
I saw a video of a girl saying if a Taurus is depressed, they probably just need to create.
So here is a poem:
She writes a note To speak a truth
I can’t believe I chipped my tooth
Is my smile still the same? Still radiant and inviting?
No – so I’m here, writing
She writes a note To speak a lie
Nothing feels the same, not a mouse or a fly
Put the pen down and Open Your Mouth
Actually, nevermind.
I don’t have anything nice to say, so I sit and bide my time.
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
The out house situation… it’s a hard no from me. Just because Shrek looked cool in his, doesn’t mean I am fooled.
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
What makes you feel nostalgic?
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
I hear songs about heartbreak. I read poems of people seeing red from anger.
But how do I write a sentence or a story to encapsulate frustration? What is a good example of art that makes me feel like I am not the only one?
I’m talking about art that shows the feeling of a rubber band about to snap – a parent with a sick kid, no job, and too many medical bills.
I’m talking about a war cry of a song – a best friend watching her best friend be abused, and knowing there is nothing she can do.
I understand anger. How it can fester and mold into divine hate – anger is the most dangerous when it is cold.
I understand compassion, it shines orange and multifaceted.
I understand depression… the stillness.
How do I understand frustration
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
You get to build your perfect space for reading and writing. What’s it like?
Reading in silence and peace is comforting. Having a nook with perfectly placed pillows, mood lighting, a mug of aromatic tea steaming next to you. I love it, sign me the fuck up.
BUT
Have you ever lost yourself in a book on the subway or the bus? As a kid, pulled out a book in the middle of the cafeteria with crack head middle schoolers trying to start a food fight?
There is a special moment when a book truly acts as an escape. All readers know it. The moment you look up from your book and realize that you’ve been so immersed in it that the world around you just… fell away.
My ideal place to read would be in a place and time that is nothing but chaotic. A Marshalls on Christmas eve. A grocery store the weekend before Thanksgiving.
I would make a fort in the toilet paper aisle, take the longest breath possible, and check tf out.
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?
My marriage
Traveling to countries that I only dreamed about with the love of my life
Accepting the death of my grandmother as a relief
Gaining a professional promotion that raised my salary to the point of exceeding my 5 year plan in 2
The day I found out my home was a safe space for a preteen whose home life was chaotic
When I was talking with my therapist and realized my wife really does love me unconditionally. It’s one thing to know, it’s another thing to understand.
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
I am so scared of my own success. I am terrified of letting the people I love down. I’m so worried that the worst thoughts I’ve had about myself are true. What if I fuck up and everyone sees the person I’ve fought so hard to change?
Wow, this is what people mean when they say journaling works. Deep Breath. Pivot.
Speaking of change,
I’m so excited that I have the opportunity to prove myself on a visible scale. I feel like I can finally be ambitious unabashedly, I feel free to hold myself to a new standard. There are so many people in the world who feel stuck – shit I’m one of them – and yet, I’ve been presented with an opportunity to break out of the box I built.
Change is scary. Life is hard. But I get to choose my hard. I have done hard things before. The people I love are not on my shoulders for pressure, but for presence. I am loved, I am enough, and they believe in me.
I’m allowed to mess up. I’m allowed to thrive. I’m not allowed to sabotage myself or my team because of fear.
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
Do you have a favorite place you have visited? Where is it?
I’m American. I grew up in cities, with respect for the country. I appreciate the silence of fields covered in snow and places so quiet it feels like you can hear the heart beats of mosquitos.
Sailing through the fjords of Norway made me feel small in the way that is hard to explain. It felt like I couldn’t take a deep breath because my lungs weren’t capable of understanding the air.
I don’t know much about the people or the traditions. But I know that the only time I feel more at home in my mind than in those fjords is when I’m with my wife.
I don’t know when or in what capacity, but I’m meant to go back. I know it.
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
Invent a holiday! Explain how and why everyone should celebrate.
This is a day where capitalism thanks the lower and middle class for keeping it afloat!
Banks give the gift of 12 late fee charges to all customers.
Credit card companies provide free debt consolidation classes and offers – along with allowing customers to cancel their accounts without stipulations or fees.
Business have the choice of providing one free item all day or providing their employees a raise (equaling the amount of the 4th cheapest item on their menus/services)
Credit reporting bureau’s forgive hard credit checks for the past year
GIVE PEOPLE A CHANCE
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Because who wants to hear the thoughts of bottoms?
I feel typical.
Wondering if I could start a YouTube Channel or figure out how to invest in the stock market.
Am I not creative enough? Do I not have enough hustle? Is it so bad that I just want to be?
Should I be upset at the world for making us all feel like we are never enough, or upset at myself for being mundane?
Why can’t I get rid of this block? Rude.
Is the world going to ruin out of coffee? Because I am genuinely more terrified of that than a global apocalypse.
Speaking of apocalypse, I think it’s time for a hard conversation. If you are one of those people who think that you would survive if the world ended, know you are the type of person who probably shouldn’t. The exact traits that made you cut throat enough to slash someones neck for toilet paper or gave you the endurance to eat cold beans in the middle of a forest… should also show you that the type of person you are is not how humanity might want to be remembered.
i say that statement with irony, knowing that I have no desire to live through an apocalypse. I barely want to live now, in a first world country. What I mean is,
The ones left standing are the ones who were willing to do whatever it took to live, but in living, lost their humanity. Absolutes barely exist, but if the Walking Dead taught us anything, it’s to make a decision early.
Spew Anew 